a letter to Grandma (ily)

DEAR, GRANDMA THERE WAS SO MUCH THAT I WANTED TO SHARE AND TELL U SO MANY THINGS I WANTED TO SHOW U GRANDMA WHY DID U GO U PROMISED THAT U'D BE AT GRADUATION APPLAUDING ME ON, IT WASN'T TIME FOR YOU TO DEPART, GRANDMA IT WASN'T TIME FOR YOU TO LEAVE ME HERE GRANDMA YOU WERE MY ROCK, MY AIR, MY SHOULDER TO CRY ON, MY LAP TO LAY ON, MY LIFE ,MY EVERYTHING GRANDMA WITH YOU GONE AIN'T NOTHING GON' BE THE SAME I NEEDED YOU HERE MORE THAN ANYTHING NOW WHAT AM I TO DO? GRANDMA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I JUST WANTED THE CHANCE TO SAY MY LAST GOOD-BYE HOLDING YOUR HAND WASN'T ENOUGH, GRANDMA I GOTTA KNOW WHY? WHY DID YOU WANT TO GO ALL THAT PRAYING WE DID.... PLEASE TELL ME IT WASN'T FOR NOTHING, NO I DIDN'T WANT U TO SUFFER BUT GOD U COULD'VE RAISED HER UP WITH ONE SNAP ONE BLOW OF AIR WITH ONE WORD AND ONE SOUND GOD PLEASE I KNOW YOUR WORD SAYS NOT TO QUESTION THE MYSTERIES OF YOU.... BUT GOD PLEASE CAN YOU MAKE ONE EXCEPTION AND ANSWER MY QUESTION? GRANDMA SPEAK TO ME I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME I FELT YOU WALKING WITH ME YESTERDAY AND I SHED ANOTHER TEAR I WENT TO CHECK YOUR BEDROOM TO SEE YOU EVEN THOUGH I KNEW YOU WEREN'T THERE, GRANDMA PLEASE ANSWER ME I DON'T WANT A REASON TO BE ANGRY WITH GOD OR YOU....BUT THEN AGAIN.... HOW CAN I BE? I KNOW WHY YOU LEFT ME ITS ONLY FOR AWHILE I'M GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN, NO I'M NOT IN DENIAL I'M IN FAITH I GOTTA HAVE IT FOR ALL UR SAKE... GRANDMA PLEASE COME BACK WHY'D YOU LEAVE I SWEAR I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA MAKE IT, GRANDMA YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND TIL THE END MY MOTHER ,MY AIR, MY LIGHT, AND ALL THINGS THAT WERE OF GOOD... YOU WERE TO ME I KNEW IN MY HEART YOU REALLY LOVED ME GRANDMA PLEASE ANSWER ME GOD PLEASE RESPOND TO ME I JUST WANNA KNOW WHY GOD? WHY DID YOU ALLOW HER TO DIE GRANDMA I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME ANSWER ME~! PLEASE COME BACK FOR THIS.. I WASN'T READY JESUS I'M CALLING YOU SEND HER BACK SO I CAN HAVE ONE LAST GOOD-BYE ONE LAST CHAT, GRANDMA I WILL BE HONEST AND ADMIT THIS GOOD-BYE WAS FOR THE BEST BUT YET TO SOON I WANTED YOU HERE BUT UP THERE IS WHERE GOD MADE ROOM DON'T WORRY GRAMS WE WILL SOON CONTINUE OUR PLANS UNTIL THEN I'LL WAIT AND WHEN THE TIME COMES I'M COMING FOR YOU AND THEN I'LL GET MY ANSWER ...I LOVE YOU GRANDMA AND I WILL SEE YOU SOON.