"DO SOMETHING"

"I told mommy what he was doing to me and she did nothing, so I took matters into my own hands.... wouldn't you?"


My eyes swelled, and my heart trembled with fear because I knew 3:00 was soon to be near, that was when mommy went away for awhile, that was when uncle Larry was left, to care for her "precious child".... "I love you and I love you", she'd always say. A kiss upon his lips then she was on her way. I watched from the window as she backed out the drive way.....like usual he was only a matter of feet away" with his hand up my dress, he whispers "time to play", I was his for the rest of the day.
Down the hall to my room he dragged me, yelling your mine and it was time to have me. he threw me on the bed and lifted up my legs, I bit down on my lip,& closed my eyes, "look at me" he yelled as he slid between my thighs, "please don't" I said, but i knew he couldn't hear, he was too busy "getting off" from the pleasure of my fear.
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I blamed myself like most girls like me do, i said it was my fault for wearing those silk pajamas you know blues clue?, with the feet cut out and the blue dog on my chest, I blamed me for putting his sperm to the the ultimate test....
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"Mother is God in the eyes of a child.... "God protects people,
so why didn't mommy protect me?"
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Sundays were the only days I got to rest mommy was home all day, that was the best.
her and uncle Larry would be in bed all day, he'd be doing to her what he did to me everyday. I cried at night because i knew Sunday's were coming to an end, and in a few hours my hell week would start up again.
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Stop touching me uncle Larry stop touching me or else.....
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Monday came and so did my pain, but this particular day nothing was the same i woke up got dressed but felt no fear i told myself "I'm gonna make mommy listen, whether or not she wanted to hear. "I love you and I love you she began to say.... then I begged and pleaded don't go mommy please please stay.... "ugh don't start", she shouted out loud, "I have to go to work, "no mommy! not now", you don't understand he's hurting me",
mommy just stared,...mommy listen to me! .. what? what are you talking about? she questioned. she looked confused as if i were giving a lesson. "Uncle Larry touches me in ways that are bad he climbs on top of me & whispers I'm the best he's ever had", mommy's eyes swelled & filled with tears, the response she gave I didn't think I heard her clear, "Anette stop lying, now go upstairs"!, "but mommy please, but nothing I say, go to your room, we'll discuss this later today". out the door she went. Off to my room just as she said, not to my surprise uncle Larry was waiting for me in my bed...he said "Poor poor Annette mommy didn't listen, now come here and give uncle Larry what he's been missing"* he got up and I backed up, further and further, til my back was against the wall, he grabbed me by my throat & off my feet he lifted me, then he stuck his tongue out and began to kiss me. "Stop uncle Larry stop it no more"! he kissed me so hard my mouth became sore, I hit and screamed but no one was there -I thought to myself even if mommy were here she wouldn't care." Uncle Larry please stop, stop it or else... Finally he let go and dropped me to the floor I bit his leg and ran, he yelled "you little whore"... I darted for the door, down the hall I ran with him right behind me, he shouts, "Anette your gonna wish you never fuckin tried me".
I kept running, down the stairs and through the kitchen door
I looked for somewhere to hide but my feet led me to the kitchen drawer, I pulled out a knife and stared at it for a minute then he came up behind me, and "ran right into it".
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I told mommy what he was doing to me and she did nothing, so I took matters into my own hands.... And I did something.